So, two months in, the mom-thing is working out quite well. M said
when he thought about whether or not to proceed with the pregnancy, one
of the things he considered was whether or not he thought I would be a
good mother. I'm a nurturing person, and given that I practically raised
my sisters and half of my cousins, M knew the answer. Still, he seems
surprised by how good I am with the baby. To be honest, there are times
when I'm surprised, too. There is so much about mothering that is
innate, I've come to realize, probably on a racial-memory level, because
it's not like I've trained for this. I just know what to do for Little
Man.
I miss sleeping. It's been six months since I had a
good night's sleep. M tries to help with the baby so I can nap, but
often as not, Little Man gets agitated when we're separated for a while
and I end up comforting him rather than sleeping. He's an easy baby, for
the most part, but he's an alert and fidgety baby. When he's awake,
often as not he wants to be in motion, and I don't mean sitting in a
swing. I mean sitting in a baby sling while I move him around :) It gets
tiring, wearing him all the time, but I'm sure that it will seem like a
blink of an eye and he'll be zipping around in his little walker. But
for now, I'm learning how to do all sorts of things while wearing him in
front--like installing metal weather-stripping on an exterior door
while Little Man made curious expressions at the sound of the drill, and
putting up a tent single-handedly.
Today we're having friends and neighbors come by to harvest
peaches off our tree and meet the baby. All the work we've done to the
exterior of the house the past 6 months have really paid off -- we've
got a lovely, comfortable outdoor space that I spend a fair amount of
time in, and will probably spend a lot more time in as Little Man grows
up. And we've got seating for 14 adults, which is nice for entertaining,
I hope. This will be our first gathering since I learned I was
pregnant.
To go with the peach theme I've made a jello mould with peaches
fresh from our tree, and some panna cotta poured into individual cups
for people to have with fresh fruit. No cheesecake this time. The baby
only naps for 15-20 minutes at a time and I can't mix the batter while
wearing him -- too much chance of disaster :)
M's mother will be arriving mid-week. I'm hoping it will be a
good visit. I really enjoying meeting his aunts and uncles a couple of
weeks ago. They said that M and I make a good team. I think so, too.
And to think how nervous and ambivalent you felt before he arrived!
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